Cara kind of had a feeling that’s what he was going to say, but actually hearing him say it in her face killed her. She suddenly gasped, “Oh my God.” and placed her hand on her stomach, no longer looking at him with her eyes wider than ever staring off in disbelief. She then placed her hand on her mouth, shaking her head and fighting off any tears. She turned around and walked in the opposite direction trying to take in everything he just said. She couldn’t believe they were both in on this, and showing this kind of disrespect towards her being their friend and girlfriend. This is something Cara would have been apart of maybe a couple months ago, but she had matured and grown from that, and she had thought they had too. She bit her lip, thinking to herself. “No, no, no..you-you, you wouldn’t do that to me..” She said looking at him with tears coming from out her eyes. Her voice was gentle feeling betrayed by both of them. “You said you would never disrespect me like that, ever!” She yelled, her gentle tone now faded away. Cara walked over to her flower vase, thinking about how nice it would be to throw it at him right about now. She couldn’t believe he would even question their relationship to be with her again, and she couldn’t believe Bianca was playing the innocent card again. Everything that was going on seemed just like old times. Drew going for the so innocent and in need of rescuing girl. She turned around and looked at him, and she looked ten times more angry. The more and more she thought to herself the more frustrated she got. “You are a liar! You lied to me!” She yelled at him, pointing her finger directly at him. The yelling caused her to become more upset and she sat down on the couch, crying about everything. “You used me, Drew. You used me.” And that’s all she could say as she buried her face into her hands.
Drew wanted so badly to just get up and leave, he couldn’t handle seeing her like this. She was breaking right in front of him, and he couldn’t pick up the pieces. Even know he expected something like this, he didn’t think it would be this awful. She really loved him, she was in love with him. Drew couldn’t conjure up the right words to say at the moment, he just watched her. He deserved to feel this pain, just look what he did to her. “I’m sorry.” His voice was soft, he could barley talk to her. “I’m so sorry….Cara, I’m fucking sorry!” His voice raised as he got angry at himself, automatically moving to the wall, wanting to punch it so bad. He decided against it, and turned around slowly, tears now streaming down his face. “Yell at me. Tell me how bad I am…I’m so horrible. Your turn.” He said bitterly, everything in his body screaming you should hate yourself. There wasn’t a moment in his life he hated himself more than right now. “You know what? I figured something out. I thought everyone I loved left me but….I really hurt them and they go away.” His eyes moved to the ground, thinking about how true that statement was. “I have to leave you Cara, this all isn’t fair to you. You deserve better…” He said in a soft sincere tone, now looking at her finally. “And I’m not just saying that to make you feel better, you deserve so much better.” He shook his head, so frustrated with himself he couldn’t handle it anymore. “Goodbye, my sexy Sophomore, I love you.” He couldn’t hold back the tears anymore, and let them fall freely to the ground. And that was the last thing he said to her as he walked out the door, and started running down the street. This was the end for them, he was no good for her. Running as fast as he could, he thought about what he was going to do next. He realized he had no idea, so he ran and ran, and not once did he look back.
The Maine | Into Your Arms
I’m fallin’ in love
But it’s fallin’ apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
You know mom always makes the best food.
You can say that again, and again, and again.
FUCK YES.
Whoo!
Something to make me happy.
Fuck, I just want to take a nap, and not wake up until…well dinner time. What? I’m hungry.
Opening the door and seeing Drew face to face was a lot different than she anticipated. Seeing him made her think about so many memories, and all the memories they’ve shared in her house, in the basement. Knowing that it could end on a negative or positive note is what was killing her. She was kinda shocked he jumped right into what the question was, and before asking the question she sort of already knew what the answer was now. He was acting completely different. No hug, no kiss, no nothing. He just wanted to talk like he knew something was wrong. She had no evidence of him being guilty about anything, so the suspicious behavior gave it all away. “I want to talk about the current rumours about you and Bianca.” She said straight out, looking directly at him. She walked up closer to him, slowly. “I’ve talked to Eli, and I’ve gotten tons of anonymous messages and I’m just really confused on what’s going on..not only that you’re acting completely strange like you did something wrong.” Cara pointed out. She walked up face to face to him, looking straight into his eyes, knowing she was becoming more and more intimidating. “Drew, are you talking to Bianca again?” She asked bluntly with a low tone to her voice. Her tone raised to somewhat yelling uncomfortably like she was going to start crying, “Look me in my eyes and tell me you aren’t talking to her like thatagain.” She said sternly, trying to stand her ground without starting to seem completely upset.
Drew in the back of his mind, knew it was about Bianca. People and anons were telling her things, she was obviously going to worry about it. Usually he would tell her not too, but this time some of the rumor was true. Freezing in place for a second, his heart beat accelerated, getting more nervous by the second on how he was going to answer he question. His heart was breaking at the sound of her voice, and the expression on her face. The whole time he couldn’t keep his eyes on her, but was forced when she came close to him. There was no way he was going to lie, he was going to tell her the truth. She as going to hate him, but he had to tell her. After taking a few deep breaths, he could hear his heartbeat pounding in his ears. Then he finally answered, “Yes.” Was all he said in a hushed tone, feeling awful for what he was doing to her. “I told her…I wanted her, she wants me too but I don’t believe it.” He admitted with a shrug, wanting to explain more and more. But no matter how much he explained, it wouldn’t change the wrongness of what he did. “I’m confused, really confused to be honest. And I don’t know why I am.” His tone was honest, but shaky, tears of frustration starting to form. Drew’s stomach was churning painfully now, even know it felt a little better to get it off his chest in some way. She had the right to know, she deserved to know.
